I PROMISE YOU

I am not too sure how often I tell you this and even how truthful I am when I get to say it; but today, I mean every single letter of every word plus all the possible meanings you get out of it. I promise you!

You have brought so much with you into my life and I really feel the best of it comes with the humility and your ability to weather the storm with me; that is indeed all I can ask for in a woman I call my wife. Thank you.

It is not your birthday nor is it our anniversary but I have come to realise that the best words and assurances shouldn't wait; these thoughts and words must be shared as soon as they are felt. They are about the most responsible way to pay back a rare display of companionship.

Times like this offer me the opportunity not only to say thank you but to be truthful. Have I been the best of husband? No, I haven’t. The good thing about this truth is that I know it and I am working hard to be better than you think I am.

The turbulence that has rocked our humble start tells a better tale of how consistent you have been and why you deserve a better deal; I haven’t seen and may never see an end to this except for the ultimate, death. Whenever it comes and whoever goes first; if feelings are carried over, I would always be grateful I have you. Once again, thank you.

I pick inspirations from quite a number of things but I have quickly come to realise how close I come to tears and inspiration when you talk to me and share our dreams together. I have always wanted to be a superb husband and a great father; this you have helped me start by seeing a reason why I should be what I actually set out to be. You made these attributes a goal worth pursuing and I am set.

My life has been rocked by some kind of challenges and I have fallen into temptations here and there but none of it has come without personal regrets and quest for self redemption. Some you reacted to and some, you let go. In all of these, I want you to know I have never taken your position in my life for granted and that which I have never contemplated is to let you go. For all my mistakes, I say, sorry. You have my love at all time and that would always be.

In all of these, my dear, I can only promise to justify your investments in our union. Your goals, the ones you have lived through and the ones you look to achieve, the drive to make our home the most pleasant destination and a place to always want to be, your pains in bringing our lovely children into this world, your doggedness in pursuing with me some of my dreams that may seem unrealistic, your trust in my ability to make the best out of nothing, your believe in my obviously limited ability; all of these would not be for nothing; I promise.

You can’t forget in a rush the days we passed together without money to spend and very little to eat. The days we had to whisper into the ears of our little boy why things had to be so hard on him even when we both knew he couldn't understand us and I also would never forget the nights you have to stay awake to keep the little man sleeping, the days spent to see our girl grow into a good woman and even the days I get so so lazy to get up and give you a hand. Let the truth be told; most of these times, I am eaten up by my guilt and weep over them in my quiet times; what a wife I have, what a man I have not been to match the energy and zeal.
All of these times are precious and are kept very close to my heart. I surely would grow into a better man and I hope one day, you would write in return for me some lines like I have done today.

This may be shared all around the world; this may be read by millions of eyes, all of these at any rate are for you and purely informed by how much you mean to me.

The best I can do is promise and pray for all of the divine guidance I can get.

Olaoluwa, I promise you!